Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Selah - A Pause for Meditation


I've fumbled around with a few ideas for a blog post lately. I decided against them all... And decided to pause instead. I need a pause... I need moments of reflection and peace. Peace from myself, from despair and feelings of inadequacy. I need a break from comparison, expectation and excuse. So while baking red velvet cupcakes this morning, I listened to the immaculate Lauryn Hill sing to me about Selah. As well as the foolish things we tell ourselves to keep from facing the truth - mostly about ourselves. "Nothing can be done against the truth, no matter how we remain in denial. Wasting time replacing time with each empty excuse."


So today on my sweet son's 11th birthday, I'm taking cupcakes to his class. My hair in a ponytail, no makeup, in a red food coloring stained t-shirt and my favorite (elastic waist band) pants and dirty Kego's. And on the pan, along with 22 tiny cakes, I carry my love for my boy - for which there is no comparison... Today I just want to pause. To be myself in my clothes, in my home, with my people. My family.
Selah ~